I was put on a Performance Improvement Plan (PIP) at my first job out of college just four months in, while still in training. The expectations were vague and subjective, which made me realize I needed to start job searching immediately. From the beginning, I sensed that my manager wasn't fond of me. Whenever I sought help, I was told I should already know the answers, and then blamed for not knowing. This created a toxic environment that led to panic attacks, sleepless nights, and excessive stress. I felt set up to fail from the start. Now, with the PIP ending this week, I’ve accepted that termination is likely. I'm struggling with feelings of failure and letting everyone down, especially as I face the reality of paying bills like student loans and credit cards without a job. I've been actively applying for new positions, but I'm worried this experience will hinder my chances. It’s painful to feel so incompetent and defeated.