I recently started a new job as a parts staff at a car dealership, but I'm already feeling overwhelmed and unhappy just three days in. I'm 28 years old, have a degree in IT, and my work experience has been a mix of different roles. My ultimate goal is to secure a position in a government office, but I've realized that getting in often requires connections, which I don't have. Currently, I'm living alone in a small apartment and my financial situation is tight, so I took this job out of desperation. The pay is only about $220 for 15 days of work, which is frustrating, especially since government jobs here in the Philippines pay around $120 more and offer two days off compared to the one day off I get here. I'm starting to question what I really want to do with my life. I’ve been thinking about starting a YouTube channel focused on gym, motorcycles, and gaming, as I believe there's a good audience for that content here. However, I’m not sure how to begin, especially since I don’t have a decent camera for vlogging, although I do have a mid-tier gaming PC to work with. I feel stuck in this cycle of just surviving rather than truly living. The loss of my mom last year has left me feeling lost and without direction. I just want to find happiness and a way to make money doing something I love, rather than being trapped in a job that makes me miserable.