Today, I'm feeling completely overwhelmed and mentally drained. Back in January 2025, my company went through layoffs, and although I survived that round, my manager warned me that I might not be so lucky next time. It was a small company that had never experienced layoffs before, so it was a shock to everyone. I quickly started job hunting and managed to secure a position within a month. I had two offers: one with a higher salary, but I chose the other for its better growth opportunities and a strong engineering culture, believing it would be a safer long-term choice. However, things took a turn when the product I was hired to work on got outsourced. The company decided to buy a product from an external vendor, leading to layoffs for everyone involved in our project, including me. There was nothing I could have done to change that outcome. After this, I aimed for stability and joined one of the largest banks in the US, thinking it would provide the peace of mind I desperately needed. Yet, since February, they've been conducting reductions in force (RIFs) almost every month. Every third Monday, I wake up with anxiety, fearing that today might be the day I lose my job again. Now, they're planning to cut around 10% of the tech workforce. I feel trapped in this cycle of uncertainty. My parents rely on me financially, and we come from a background where we struggled for years to reach a stable point. My older sister is getting married soon, which means the responsibility for my family will fall entirely on my shoulders. I don’t ask for much—just three months of job security. I want someone to assure me that my position is safe, but that seems like an impossible wish. My resume is already looking messy due to these short stints, all caused by factors beyond my control, and I'm terrified that potential employers will judge me without understanding my situation. The anxiety has become unbearable. Some days, I genuinely feel hopeless and think about ending my life, not because I want to die, but because I want the fear and uncertainty to stop. If anyone has been through something similar or has practical advice on coping, I would really appreciate it.