I recently faced a tough situation with two job offers I received. During orientation for both positions, I found myself crying uncontrollably and ultimately decided to quit before even starting. This was completely out of character for me, as I've never experienced anything like this before. I currently have a job that I enjoy, but it doesn't pay enough for my living expenses, so I need at least two jobs to make ends meet. When I received the offers, I thought it would be a positive change, but instead, I felt overwhelmed and questioned my entire existence. Thoughts like 'Is this all there is?' and 'How long will this last?' plagued me. I felt trapped in a mundane routine, and the idea of continuing in that way felt unbearable. I want to escape this feeling, but I also realize I can't isolate myself forever. It's frustrating because I genuinely want to work and improve my situation, but I keep breaking down at the very opportunities that could help me. I'm really struggling to understand what's going on with me.