badkneesneedlovetooo's journey

I’m a 30-year-old firefighter, and I find myself in a constant search for a better job, even though I’m not unhappy where I currently work. I enjoy my role and the people I collaborate with, yet I often scroll through job postings, contemplating if there’s something out there that could offer better pay, benefits, or overall quality of life. My job search may stem from being laid off twice during the COVID pandemic, which left me with a lingering sense of job insecurity. I want to settle down, build a career, and eventually retire, but my habit of looking for new opportunities makes it hard to establish seniority. I struggle with feeling satisfied, even when things are going well. I wonder if this restlessness is due to ambition, fear of missing out, or an inability to appreciate my current position. I’m curious if others in the fire service have faced similar challenges and how they found a department they felt comfortable staying with until retirement.