Balloonwithaclown's journey

I just experienced my second layoff in three years, and it's really thrown me for a loop. The financial anxiety is overwhelming, but the mental paralysis is even worse. I find myself swinging between the urge to apply for any job immediately and the desire to completely pivot my career every couple of days, which has led to wasted time and indecision. I’ve been trying to figure out if I need immediate cash or if I should focus on a long-term career plan. If it's cash, I need to apply for jobs quickly, but if I'm pivoting, I know I have to accept that it will take time and stick to a daily routine. Cold applying for jobs is draining, so I’m shifting my strategy to focus on reaching out to a few people each day and preparing for interviews. Last week, I felt so overwhelmed that I took some free online career tests, which helped clear my mind and provided a clearer list of roles to pursue and avoid. Currently, I’m trying to apply less and instead prioritize building genuine connections within the industry. I’ve also stopped saying "I’m open to anything" during recruiter calls because it comes off as desperate and unfocused. On a positive note, I have a small contract gig lined up, which is helping to ease my panic a bit.