bbqcornnuts312's journey

I am currently facing a difficult situation at my job as an administrative support member on a small sales team. My senior lead has a strong personal dislike for me, which I believe is leading to my potential termination. Last year, I was placed on a Performance Improvement Plan (PiP) without prior warning, and while some of the issues were valid, many stemmed from my coworkers' mistakes that my manager seems to overlook. Despite my efforts to improve and adapt to the team's dynamics, I feel like an outsider, especially since most of my colleagues are long-time employees. I’ve worked hard to understand our internal processes, but I still struggle with some tasks that I haven't been adequately trained on. Recently, I faced a significant challenge with a process that was not even included in our training manual, which resulted in complaints from project managers. My boss told me I haven't improved, yet he only provided a few examples of my mistakes over the last three quarters. I find it frustrating that my coworkers continue to make the same errors I was penalized for, and I am left with a disciplinary record for issues that are still occurring. I want to leave this job on my own terms, ideally after securing a new position, but I am anxious about the possibility of being terminated instead of laid off. This experience has been emotionally taxing, especially considering my chronic back problems that limit my job options. I feel trapped in a toxic environment that combines micromanagement with inadequate training and discriminatory treatment. I just want to be treated fairly and given the same opportunities as my coworkers.