Hairy-Ad-2655's journey

I’ve been working as a contractor scientist in the biotech field for the past 9 years, primarily in the Bay Area. Despite my strong performance metrics, I haven’t been able to break into a Senior Scientist role, which is crucial for advancing into management positions. It’s disheartening to see peers from my PhD program quickly rise to higher positions while I feel stuck. I have autism, and although I’ve tried to adapt by masking my behaviors, it hasn’t helped me gain the promotions I’ve been seeking. I’ve applied to over 1000 jobs in the last few years, meticulously tracking my applications, yet the responses have been minimal. I’m increasingly worried about the future of my career, especially with advancements in AI and microfluidics that threaten my current role. I've even been in situations where I trained machines to do my job before being downsized. The pressure is immense, and I feel like I’m on a blacklist, even though I know that’s illegal. I’ve rewritten my cover letter and resume multiple times, trying to tailor them for each application, but it feels futile. I’ve also noticed a lot of nepotism in the industry, which further complicates my situation. My friends who are CEOs in biotech refuse to engage in such practices, but I see it happening everywhere around me. I’m working with therapists and reading self-help books to improve my situation, but I still feel singled out at work. The thought of sabotaging my coworkers has crossed my mind, but I know that’s not the right path. I’ve started applying for jobs outside the Bay Area, hoping to escape the cycle of ghost job listings, but I still feel lost and unfixable. It’s incredibly depressing to think about how much I’ve invested in my education and career, only to feel like I’m worse off than if I had pursued a trade. I’m reaching out for help because I genuinely don’t know what to do next.