isthisreallyfr's journey

I was recently let go from my dream job, and it feels surreal. This was my first true well-paying position, and I loved everything about it—the people, the culture, the schedule, and the workload. I have bipolar 2 and ADHD, and I've always prided myself on being a good employee, no matter the industry. Work was the one area of my life where I felt I had control. However, over the past few months, medication changes threw me off balance, and I started to struggle significantly. I was transparent with my boss about my challenges, but despite being placed on a Performance Improvement Plan (PIP), I still fell short in many areas. Today was unexpected; I thought it was going well, but I ended up being fired. I've never faced this before, and it feels devastating. I loved the mission and everything about the job, yet I somehow managed to sabotage it. I feel an overwhelming sense of unhappiness and shame for failing at something that once brought me so much joy. I take full responsibility for my actions, but it's hard to believe this is happening. I had envisioned a long-term future there, and now I feel heartbroken and ashamed for not committing enough to make that dream a reality.