Much_Cheesecake420's journey

I've been feeling incredibly overwhelmed at work and in my personal life lately. For the past year, I've been struggling with what I can only describe as aggressive depression. I find myself getting angry for no reason, and even while driving, I have these urges that scare me. It's clear I need professional help, but I'm worried about the implications of taking that step. I work in inventory at a dispensary, and my job has become a source of significant stress. I'm constantly dealing with frustrated customers, and despite my role, my boss doesn't trust me with inventory tasks. I've expressed my dissatisfaction multiple times, but it feels like I've been ignored. My boss has admitted to having ADHD and often forgets things, which seems to be affecting my situation. It's frustrating to see others being given responsibilities that I’ve been asking for, and I feel like I'm being treated unfairly. I've tried to communicate my concerns to my leads, but it hasn't led to any changes. One lead even went as far as to speak poorly about me to my manager, which has made things even more difficult. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I'm at a breaking point and considering checking myself into a psychiatric hold, but I'm terrified that it would lead to me losing my job. Should I talk to my boss about how I feel, or would that just make things worse? I don't believe anything would change even if I did. I'm looking for genuine advice on how to navigate this situation.