Today, I reflected on my job search struggles and the anxiety that has been holding me back. I'm 21 and currently living with my parents in an Asian country. I had a part-time job as a server at a restaurant for about two years, which was a casual environment with just me and the chef. I decided to quit a month before graduating high school due to hygiene concerns at the restaurant. After that, I took a gap year, but I didn't use it effectively and ended up getting rejected from university twice. This made me realize that traditional schooling isn't for me, but now I feel like I've wasted a lot of time. The thought of applying for a 'proper' job terrifies me. I'm scared of new environments and responsibilities, and interviews feel daunting. I recently discovered that I've been struggling with anxiety since middle school, which has severely impacted my confidence and decision-making. I keep doubting my abilities and whether I can work well with others. It's frustrating because I don't want to stay stuck in this mindset, but I feel overwhelmed and unsure about how to take the first step. I've decided to start looking for a seasonal job instead, but the anxiety still lingers. I feel like I'm starting from zero, and it's been like this for over a year now. I struggle with self-compliments, as my mind quickly dismisses them with negativity. Overall, I'm disappointed in myself and just want to overcome this fear. I'm reaching out to see if anyone else has faced similar challenges and how they managed to build their confidence.
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