I'm reaching the six-month mark of unemployment, and honestly, I feel hopeless. I attended a mandatory presentation to keep collecting unemployment where they said, "Don't worry, this is only temporary." But six months feels anything but temporary. 2026 is shaping up to be the worst year of my life. I've been a professional software engineer for sixteen years, and this is the longest I've ever been without a job. I chose this field for its stability, but that feels like a joke now. I’ve made a previous post warning others to reconsider this career unless they truly love coding. Now, I’m competing against thousands of others who are also laid off, and I can’t help but feel selfish for thinking this way. I wonder if other laid-off developers, especially those credited in games or movies, are facing the same absurd hoops in the job market. The interview process is frustrating. It feels like my degree and experience mean nothing; I have to jump through so many rounds, often with people who have thick accents, making communication difficult. Getting an interview is a challenge in itself, and when I do, I often get rejected despite feeling like a good fit. I had a particularly frustrating experience with Capital One, where I applied, completed a technical assessment, and didn’t hear back for four months. When I finally got an interview, I had to scramble to relearn concepts I hadn’t used since college. Some technical assessments are intrusive, requiring me to install browser add-ons and phone apps to prevent cheating. I’ve also encountered unscrupulous people on LinkedIn trying to sell dubious career services to those of us "Open to Work." I even paid for a resume rewrite on Fiverr, which helped a bit, but I’m still facing countless rejections. Every day feels like a battle to apply for jobs, and even during my one vacation this year, I felt the need to keep applying. When I finally do get an interview, I often feel like I bombed it, even though I was hired for my last role at Home Depot despite thinking I did poorly. Job hunting is a job in itself. On top of that, I need to keep my skills sharp for technical interviews. I was offended when a friend suggested I should play long RPGs while unemployed; they just don’t understand how much harder it is for software engineers. I’m also juggling my acting career, where I have better luck landing auditions, but none of them pay enough to sustain a living. I just needed a space to vent. I live alone, and I don’t have a spouse or parents to lean on for support. My friends offer generic sympathy but don’t engage in deeper conversations. It feels like I’m ranting into the void, and it’s ironic that I’m in this situation due to the A.I. boom. I know it could be worse—like being homeless—but the psychological and financial toll is still heavy. The only thing keeping me grounded is my love for the arts; without that, my mental state would be much worse during this prolonged unemployment.
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