temubrin's journey

I've been job hunting in NYC since the start of 2025, applying to over 20 entry-level positions and going through 5 interviews, but I haven't had any success yet. I'm turning 20 soon and I've never really had a 'real' job. Recently, I approached a local grocery store for a cashier position, but the manager told me they were looking for 'ladies' and that they already had enough men. It left me feeling confused and frustrated. I'm starting to wonder if my very ethnic first and last name is holding me back. It's quite difficult for people to pronounce, and I think that might be leading to some pre-judgment against me. I’m also on the spectrum, which might add to the challenges I face in interviews. I'm contemplating whether I should change my first name, at least, to something more manageable. It's humiliating to think that my name could be a barrier to getting hired, but I feel like I need to do something to improve my chances. I've considered using a nickname when applying, but I'm not sure if that would really make a difference. I know that 20 applications and 5 interviews might not seem like a lot, but I can't help but feel that my name is a significant factor in my lack of callbacks.